creativity

Art for Sanity

The past 3 months were like I was living in one of Salvador Dali’s paintings. Empty roads, empty schools, empty malls, empty airports. It was surreal. It took me a while to comprehend what was going on. Who would have imagined that the whole planet would come at a standstill?

Like many, I observed the health authorities’ recommendation and complied with a self lock-down in my apartment on my own. I knew that this was going to be a challenge. At first, I thought that this was going to be only a two-week task but then it was very clear that it will take much longer than that. 

Fantastic Journey

There was no single day or moment during this lockdown that I felt lonely or sad or annoyed. I created the best company I could have had. I imposed on my self the daily routine to sketch or paint anything. I discovered new media like watercolor and ink. As days went by, I’ve seen progress in my new technique and was getting good reviews on social media. I was always looking forward to my next painting, my next inspiration. I mainly painted people, from young to old. The human figure was always my favorite subject irrespective of the medium I’ll use.

There were moments where I was thinking of what I would have done should I did not paint. Would I have gone nuts? Would I be bored? Knowing me, I would have kept myself busy anyways however, the fact that I kept myself busy with my passion was a very healthy move to my sanity. I was positive all the way. COVID-19 was a blessing in disguise. It was great. I loved every day that passed by. I created so much that I had to create a new section on my website for my watercolor and ink paintings.

I was safe

My creativity kept me away from the fear that was constantly being showered on us by the media in general. I was aware of what was going on in my country and around the world but I did not let the news affect me. My art was my buffer. My art was my refuge. My art was a safe place. My art kept me sane.

Jose’ Micallef

June 2020

When all colours go black

There are moments where I am scared of the paint brush. Moments where I do not know what to do with the colours, how to mix them. My mind simply goes boom. Nothing is connected inside my brain. I lose all sense of making art. I stare at an empty white canvas without any reaction. I feel soul less.

Many times I forced myself to sketch and paint during this black period but I create only garbage. I feel like I am a toddler get hold of the pencil for the first time in his life. The feeling is devastating. There were times where I thought that I lost it. That I cannot paint or draw anymore. I despair. What will happen of me should I stop painting? Who will I be?

I do go through these moments. Sometimes it’s only days but other times they take weeks even months. I cannot say they are happy days. I simply exist. It is very frustrating but now I know that the colours will eventually come back. So I’ve learnt not to fight it. I simply let it be until that moment where I am friends again with my paint brushes. I see the reds, the blues, the greens, the yellows, the greys. I don’t care what medium I use. As long as I create, I’m fine. I’m in the right place. I’m in my world of colours.